bouncing-tomato

    Hey, you guys. I've got some bad news for now. I know I promised I would upload more stuff this month but it seems that my depression just got back after all the therapy and right now I'm actually struggling to stay motivated. I keep watching Naruto and Dragon Ball which helps my mood a lot, but I'm not in shape for anything. I have a lovely SasuNaru drawing that hasn't been finished yet, I haven't touched the tablet since New Year's Eve. 
 
    You might ask what happened, well, the same old story with my mom, haunting memories and regrets, and also.. something terrible has happened in my country. We had an amazing Government until december, when a new one  or the same must have been selected. Old people that were fooled with free oil and flour went and voted for PSD ( which is a communist party) instead of voting for keeping the same Gov and Parliament. This new government adopted and modified some laws which are going to free some prisoners and also, politicians that are being accused of corruption. They just cleared their sins, like that! People were protesting all over the place, even I went to protest twice but NOTHING STOPPED THEM, they changed the laws today at 8 p.m. and I am really afraid they are gonna knock out the President too because he was and still is against them. They fooled people to vote them, promising free stuff, more money for the social budget for people who don't work, minorities and old people. I really sense that something bad is going to happen here just like in the U.S. and it's terrible, my anxiety has gone over the limits and my sleep is doomed. I have to go to work every morning and I just can't take it anymore. At work I have to be friendly with all the customers on the phone and really calm.
 
    I really promise that I won't give up on my passion no matter what, I need to become stronger. In the worst case scenario, people that are protesting might start a revolution and everything might go violent if nothing changes, and also, OUR CONTRY MIGHT BE KICKED OUT OF THE EUROPEAN UNION because it does not respect democratic justice, and if that happens, it's gonna get bad. I'm a weakling and if I don't become stronger, I won't be able to defend myself. If prisoners are going to sit next to me in the bus from now on, I'll have to be prepared for it, because the new laws are just going to ignore almost anything. I'm gonna finish my drawings too. I just don't know how to start tho, I feel numb as hell. I'm sorry I disappointed you, but just know that I am still here, I'm visiting dA every evening.
 
   Joke: If I'll be inactive for more than two weeks, don't bother calling the romanian police because they'll no longer care about citizens, so it might mean I'm dead. Oh well...
   
   UPDATE: I was also announced today that within 30 days I have to leave this apartment I now pay rent for, because it's been put on sale. Awesome, huh? This can't go worse, can it? I talked to someone and I might move with an old woman for the next 5 months and then leave this city for good. 

    Love from the bottom of my heart to a special person from dA! Thank you for your kind heart, for your awesome fictions and for being a good listener and a far away friend. I don't know too much about you yet because we were both busy, but what I'm sure is that we have some things in common. What you did for me was the best early Christmas present I could ever get! I was so stuck with my job and personal problems that I could barely keep my mind on this planet! xD
   After years of being in such a bad mood that I could barely move around, I am really glad that there is someone that appreciates my drawings and what I want to do. Indeed, becoming a great artist requires a lot of work, also some studies, understanding old artworks and culture, etc. I really wanted to give up on that, like.. why am I doing this, why I am drawing, just to illustrate some pictures from my head? But no, damn it. One day, everyone who said that I can't do things at my best will see. Even if it is not when they expect, a huge progressas a surprise is better than just a good progress when it is expected. At least, that's my way!  

I am gonna come up with a lot of stuff the next months, so stay tuned! I am gonna be at my grandma in my hometown for the holidays, I don't think I will have too much access to the Internet there, but.. that does not mean I can't draw!!!   
Less internet, more time to work my ass off without being distracted xD. I cannot wait. I will also visit my boyfriens as some break days. Soooo... I think in January dA might be spammed by my huge amount of submissions at once
Thank you again, my dear friend, for always giving me hope exactly when I needed it more. 

Have a nice day everyone!

First of all, folks, I have discovered an AMAZING SasuNaru artist, I can't find her account on dA but here's her album on Flickr: www.flickr.com/photos/45305087…



Her pictures are so lovely, they made me stare at them for minutes. 
Also, I watched Naruto Shippuden 478 and I was like...
SUCH A BEAUTIFUL EPISODE, Sasuke is such an amazing human being and Naruto has such a perfect soul =3=
Anyway, I will start posting here more often soon, I'm currently working on two drawings, one SasuNaru and the other one is a Sasuke (kind of) portrait. Both of them are digital and I'm a noob so it will take me longer at the beginning. I promise I'll get better, I want to get better. To come back here after 4 years of absence really filled a hole in my heart. I love being here.
Meanwhile, my announcement is:

I WILL START A NARUSASU FANFICTION SOON, VERY SOON. The Fanfiction will represent the beginning of the story. After the fanfic is finsihed at one point, I will continue it as a doujinshi!  
I'm so excited for this, I don't even know how to start  
 Have a nice day and love you all, people of dA